right now, when I need to have balls of steel and be a mega bitch, meds are definatly a dis-advantage. cause I just don't have those qualities when I am medicated (medicaited for your protection would be my slogan)

so I have put out a call to my sisters to literally stand with me

I watched a vet abuse a horse today, and the whole place has a bad feel

please send what ever prayers/energy you can to both me and Sky as we try to get through this (strength for me and protection for him)

ok so Sky must have friends in high places......this morning i woke up not being able to swallow 2 hours later I had completely lost my voice...and why? cause I have a penicillian resistant strep AND a major bladder infection (explains the aching back)........this is round 2 with this damned strep, if this new med doesn't knock it out step 3 is hospitalization........so I am stuck home today, doing work from here, good thing is it will give me plenty of time to go to the stables and check on Sky.............woooooohoooooo........life just sucks sometimes......

ok so I have completely traumatized my horse, I managed to take him from his mother, put him in a trailer he was terrified of, put him in a stall he's never been in, and geld him all within 24 hours. The look in his eyes, it just broke my heart, I cried after we left, I just wanted to pull up a chair in his stall and stay with him, but of course it's not my farm so I can't do that.............grrrrrrrrrrrrrr...............

I almost got kicked in the head today, he decided to jump out of his stall through the window, completely over me. aparently he did this last night too. It is amazing he didn't hurt himself, but he never touched the door itself. well.....looks like I could have a jumper on my hands if I wasn't too old to worry about getting hurt (I used to show hunter/jumper when I was young)

I am frustrated my book hasn't gotten here, I am having mini mental breakdowns at random times. One of our residents at works guardian broght over her 15 mo old grandson and I broke down and cried in the middle of a meeting, after that I coulsn't get my head out of my ass, then I had to go to the barn for the procedure...........been one of those days.................

and my horse.....looks like I may have serverly under-estimated his size at full grown..........they are talking over 16-17 hands according to the vet............woohoo

I have bought a money pit, gotta love it..........well in the long run, when we get a farm and I can be with Sky all the time it will all be worth it

meanwhile...my oldest son is using the horse to hit on the girls his age at the barn...Men!

I love it when you connect with nature.........like thunderstorms, whose violent nature calms yet energizes me. and the simple act of communicating with Sky. Today was traumatic for both of us, I had him moved to a closer farm and he had never been away from mom and never been trailered, but even at his most panicked I was able to calm him by simply talking to him and touching him, we bonded today.

I do worry a bit because the place I have him, according to a co-worker has a history of being abusive..........so time to break out the animal companion protection spell and hang some stones from his stall.................

well it has been an exhausting day and I am ready to collapse in bed......and hope no storms knock out power and cause the alarms not to go off in the mornings again......wooohoooo...........

sometimes the kids are just too darn cute. This pic was taken by my oldest, and actually captures a rough housing session (which is against house rules) by my 2 youngest. It just goes to show you that out of the chaos comes beauty.

tomorrow I go look at a possible new home for our horse. I am nervous, but it will all come together. This place isn't as close as I would like, but the place I wanted him in is full until fall. *sigh* but this place is a whole lot closer than he is now and is not far from my daughters school and it's cheaper.

today I took half a day off and actually did nothing. I got some books to refresh myself on horse care and did some errands that needed to be done.

from the chaos comes beauty.....